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2025-01-17 07:18 am
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RIP David Lynch

I don't even know what to say. I was an Art Kid in the 90s; his influence on who I am and how I think cannot be overstated.

I hear that the wildfires may have played a role in his death and I am even more livid.

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2023-01-22 04:47 pm
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RIP eftychia

I just heard that [personal profile] eftychia has died. I was wondering as she normally posts every day. Actually, her posts are away that I've quietly marked the time. We never met in real life, but we've been friends for years here, and before on LJ.

She brought not just her wisdom but drew from a diverse group of writers, from literature, from activism. It was an honour to start every day with a post from her—sometimes gentle and encouraging, sometimes provocative.

She made the world, and specifically this place, a better place. And I'll miss her voice in the wilderness.
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2022-10-14 06:58 am
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RIP Chandler

I remember Chandler mainly from the Jewish Women's Committee Against the Occupation vigils in front of the Israeli consulate. It's a tough cause to take up—people spit on you and scream at you, and there's not tons that a person can do from here. But he was there faithfully, holding the banner—like he was at every street protest I can remember, for decades. And always with a certain measure of optimism and wit and levity, which I never knew how he managed after so many years of being on the losing side.

I remember how when my friends and I were at a demo, we'd see his unmistakable tall figure approaching and say, "oh, Chandler is here, now the protest can start." Because it was true. If there was an injustice, he was out there fighting it, for nearly a century.

Like so many of our movement elders—like Manuel, Naomi, Miriam, Judith—all the friends and comrades I looked up to and lost in the past few years, I never conceived of him dying. He was too smart, too stubborn, to give in to something like death. He had too much to do.

He lived an incredible 96 years, only a fraction of which I was privileged to know about. You can read more here if you're interested (and trust me, he was absolutely fascinating).

Chandler was brilliant and empathetic and I will very much miss him.
sabotabby: (doom doom doom)
2021-12-16 07:11 am

rip bell hooks

I'm speechless.

There are maybe a handful of people who've had a greater influence on who I am and how I think. Maybe. I can't overemphasize how much her work helped me learn how to be an educator and an activist and a good human in the world.

From all accounts, she was also a lovely and generous person who lived the same principles she expressed in her writing. 

The world will be so much lesser without her. Rest in power.
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2020-12-13 06:42 pm
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Seriously fuck 2020

John le Carré has died. He was one of my favourite authors, and yes, 89 is quite old, but I'm still devastated as I've read a few of his recent books and he was still writing amazing stories right up until the end. I like this quote a lot from the obituary:

“Thematically, le Carré’s true subject is not spying,” Timothy Garton Ash wrote in The New Yorker in 1999. “It is the endlessly deceptive maze of human relations: the betrayal that is a kind of love, the lie that is a sort of truth, good men serving bad causes and bad men serving good.”
 

He wrote complicated, complicit characters with a profound humanism. In all of the jingoism and ideology of the Cold War, he found the nuance, the vulnerability, and the grace in people, and continued to do so for other conflicts, for many decades later.

Rest In Power.
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2020-10-19 07:16 pm

goodbye to Naomi

Just received word that an old friend and comrade has died. We don't have details yet; I heard from a mutual friend just now. I haven't seen her in a few years, with all the various things that consumed my life before covid, but we were quite close back in the day, and she was someone I looked up to a great deal. I knew her from Jewish Women's Committee to End the Occupation, but she was involved everywhere, with community organizing in Regent Park, to feminist struggles, to disability rights.

She was a ferocious activist, writer, documentary producer, and badass educator who devoted her life to justice around the world. She had the kind of fierce energy that just doesn't come along every day.

As I said to the friend who told me about her death, may her memory not just be a blessing but a reason to renew our rebellion.
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2018-06-08 07:41 am

Rest in Power

Also, Anthony Bourdain died. Who happened to be one of the few celebrity types that I actually admired. Truly, we live in the darkest possible timeline.
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2018-01-24 06:58 pm

Ursula K. LeGuin

I don't know what to say that hasn't already been said eloquently by so many of you who have been as touched by her work and life as I was. Rest In Power, thank you for everything.
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2016-11-13 03:16 pm

A singer must die

Nearly immediately after I learned of Leonard Cohen's death—while it was an inevitability for which I'd been steeling myself for months—I was whisked off to a weekend-long union thing, and haven't been able to so much as crack open my laptop in the past 72 hours or so. I've had access to Facebook and such, but I've been in passive reception mode, squinting at news, and poems, and song lyrics, and links to videos through the tiny screen of my cell phone in between sitting still and watching PowerPoint after PowerPoint. I was, to be fair, surrounded by a good number of people also mourning Leonard Cohen, but unlike the deaths of most famous people, this is an intensely personal grief that needs to be written, not spoken. Tributes to Leonard Cohen are really best written with a cigarette dangling out of one's mouth in the Chelsea Hotel while a kohl-eyed girl drowsily calls your name from the unmade bed, and anyway, I don't even smoke.

Which is to say that I haven't been in an environment that's been particularly conducive to collecting all of my thoughts, let alone writing them down.

When an artist dies at 82, having accrued international fame and reknown, amassed a body of work near-universally acknowledged as genius, it's a cause for celebration rather than mourning, but fuck it, I'm sad. Leonard Cohen is one of my earliest musical memories— maybe my earliest one. Unlike so many kids, I didn't rebel against the music my parents listened to, because it was "Suzanne" and "So Long Marianne" and "That's No Way To Say Goodbye" and "Chelsea Hotel" and "Famous Blue Raincoat" that my mother played, on the tape deck, to the point where we had to routinely rewind the exhausted plastic with a pen. It was his songs that I painstakingly tried to pluck out on piano or strum on guitar, his poems and novels in tattered books that I brought into my English classes, and later, when I was a teenager, his songs that inspired the rest of the music I'd grow to love.

There's a transcendence to Cohen's poetry, and that's why so much of the world is grieving just like me. He tapped into something dark and primal and sultry and seductive, these bleak and rich songs of sex and death and God and longing. But there's also an intense specificity. It's the words and music of a particular milieu, the cultural fabric of 60s and 70s Jewish Montreal that is in my DNA, even though I wasn't born yet, or born there. It's not just that Cohen was brilliant, but he was ours, by far the greatest poet and songwriter to come out of this country, from the same strange, haunted corner of it as my own family.

The world is hell right now, and threatening to descend into an even deeper, unimaginable hell, and there are so many things to mourn. But thank you, Mr. Cohen. I'll have your music to help me survive it.
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2016-06-17 08:02 am
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All you fascists

I'm feeling pretty fucked up over the assassination of Jo Cox by fascist scum. I didn't know her, I'm not British, but by all accounts she was the rarest of unicorns, a politician who didn't suck.

But specifically, I'm unnerved because it's brazen. Britain went from silly flotilla battles to actual murder of a person in a heartbeat. Unlike Orlando, the motives are obvious—the killer was a fascist and Cox was killed for opposing fascism. Charles Stross has a harrowing post up about it.

It's a reminder that we're always, always, a heartbeat away from barbarism. Actual, literal fascism—not Godwin's Law-violating disagreements on the intertubes—is an ascendant force in the world right now. It's kind of restrained where I live, at the moment, compared to Europe and the U.S. But I haven't forgotten that everyone was nodding along to Harper's niqab ban bullshit until Trudeau gave a pretty face to opposing it.

We are teetering on the brink of a global economic collapse. And much as the earnest radicals among us seem to believe this will lead to something fun and egalitarian, the far-right is best posed to take over in that kind of scenario, and it won't go well for any of us.
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2015-08-24 11:55 am
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R.I.P.

For those of you who haven't heard it on FB, [livejournal.com profile] gillen reportedly died this weekend of natural causes at the age of 45. I don't know any more than that, but his sister broke the news and would like it passed on.

I never met him IRL, but he was a long-time friend here, and one of the funniest, coolest, and most insightful people I've ever encountered, on or offline, with an acerbic wit matched only by his razor sharp politics.

Rest In Power. You will be missed.
sabotabby: (books!)
2015-03-12 04:44 pm
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RIP Pterry

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Heartbroken, like the rest of the internet. What more can be said?
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2015-02-27 09:15 pm
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Live long and prosper

As a child, I didn't identify easily with other people. I was always too weird, out of step with what everyone else seemed to like, an unfortunate combination of slightly too smart and far too awkward to see myself as the same species of creature as those around me. It is, therefore, not surprising that I would develop an early interest—okay, obsession—with sci-fi.

The Holy Trinity for me was Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy, Doctor Who, and Star Trek, in part because spaceships are cool, but, in retrospect, mostly because they featured characters who appeared human (because human actors) but were definitely alien, and thus set apart and able to deconstruct and analyze human nature in an attempt to reconcile themselves to it. For a weird little geek like me, this was probably how I learned to be in any way functional.

Which is to say, at a very early age, Spock—and by extension, the amazing, and very much mourned, Leonard Nimoy—made me a feel little less isolated, a little better understood, and vastly more human.

R.I.P.
sabotabby: raccoon anarchy symbol (silver mt zion)
2014-06-09 03:56 pm
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RIP, People's Poet

In the midst of an already tumultuous day, I was deeply sad to learn that Rik Mayall died at the age of only 56.

Many of you have had the experience of sending me videos that you think are hilarious, only to have me stare at them kinda blankly. Truth is, I don't find much comedy funny. It takes quite a lot of work to make me laugh.

Unless you're Rik Mayall, who, as Alexei Sayle put it, could make people laugh just by walking on stage. (And dammit, I am even sadder at the thought of Alexei Sayle being sad.) I think it was [livejournal.com profile] rohmie who first made me watch The Young Ones, which was anarchic, absurdist, and just plain brilliant. If you haven't watched it, seriously, check it out.





(Note, I am posting this from work and can't play video, so I assume that all of these clips work and have volume and stuff.)

Then [livejournal.com profile] the_axel figured out that I would presumably watch anything with this guy in it. Here he is as Lord Flashheart in Blackadder:



I would link you to The New Statesman where Mayall plays the polar opposite of Rik the Anarchist, but hey, someone has gone and put the whole thing up on YouTube. (Skip the second series; it's all sex comedy. The rest is genius.)

Anyway, normally celebrity deaths don't ping my radar very much if at all, but this one did. RIP, Rik, and thanks for everything.
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2014-04-02 11:01 pm
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Saying goodbye to my best friend

This is, as you might imagine, a heartbreaking entry to write. Which means that I'm going to write it once and post it in several places, and my apologies in advance to anyone who has to read it more than once.

Just over a decade ago, I went to the Humane Society to adopt a cat. Being a crazy cat lady (though, at the time, quite catless), I of course found myself paralyzed with indecision, wanting to adopt all of them. Until an oversized white paw whipped out from somewhere in one of the lower, shadowy, almost hidden cages and swiped my leg, and thus Marinetti declared me his own.

He was, at the time, almost four years old, on a medical waiver because of his deformed eyes and chronic herpes infection, and had been at the Humane Society the longest out of all the cats. He looked like a tough customer. Like most creatures who look terrifyingly badass, Marinetti was, naturally, a sweetheart.

Many of you met him over the years and can attest to the fact that he was the Best Cat. He was loving—often at inconvenient times and in inconvenient places, often aggressively affectionate—gregarious, and smart as hell. He was adventurous, even into his old age. What you may not know is that he was also a sensitive gentleman when he needed to be. During the darkest times of my life, he was my one constant, and my best friend.

Details of how he died )

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This is the last picture I took of him, earlier this evening. The fact that he was being sweet to Cocoa here is some indication that he was not himself.

I'm heartbroken. Anguished. There aren't words, really, so I'm not going to try. I've known this was coming for awhile, and that actually makes it somewhat easier, because every second I've had with him has mattered. I know that he had a far better life with me than he would have if we'd never met.

But when I got home from the vet clinic and he didn't meet me at the door I almost broke. I don't know how I'm going to deal with a world that doesn't have him in it. Goodbye, my beloved kitty. I will miss you so much.

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Marinetti
February 5, 1999—April 2, 2014
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2014-03-24 07:41 pm
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R.I.P. Oderus

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The above image is the only rational explanation for the otherwise premature death of Dave Brockie, a.k.a. Oderus Urungus. I'm sure another cause of death will emerge, but this is the correct one. And also sums up why the world is a lesser place in his absence.

Here are some videos to remember him by.


Back when it was metal causing juvenile delinquency and not gangsta rap and Tipper Gore wanted to put warning labels on everything fun, here is GWAR on Joan Rivers talking about censorship.


GWAR covering "Carry On My Wayward Son."


Oderus reading "Goodnight Moon." NSFW.

ETA: [livejournal.com profile] jvmatucha has an awesome GWAR story plus more videos, so hop on over there too.
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2014-01-28 08:05 pm
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R.I.P. Pete Seeger

I'm actually really sad about Pete Seeger's death. End of an era and all that. I grew up listening to his music and it was part of the formative background of my politics. It's another one of those things where one goes, "oh, I mean, he was 94 and lived an amazing life," but it is still kind of making me tear up every time I turn on the radio.
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2013-12-05 06:18 pm
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R.I.P. Nelson Mandela

"Mandela once told me, son, when you're engaged in guerilla warfare, take advantage of any toilet you come across — you never know when you'll come across the next one." — Ronnie Kasrils, ANC military coordinator

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The world lost a great man today, and while it's not a tragedy as such—living to 95 and seeing your dreams, for the most part, fulfilled is a triumph that deserves more celebration than mourning—even a long-anticipated loss of someone so incredible is still painful. I won't write a long eulogy or reflection; there will be enough of those soon enough, most of which are probably already written. (I mean, he was 95 and very ill; don't tell me that the chattering class didn't have his obituary written for years.)

What I want to write about instead is the importance of memory. Tomorrow morning, I'll find out if my kids even know who Mandela was. I certainly did at their age. I'm part of the shrinking group of people whose memory—political memory, that is—is just long enough to encompass the 80s and the anti-apartheid movement, and it's strange sometimes, and it will be stranger in the next few days.

In my earliest memories, opposition to South African apartheid was radical, subversive, and dangerous. The boycott movement was a grassroots thing; governments didn't get on board until much later. Friends of mine who were active in the movement had their phones tapped—and this was here, in Canada, where they could be little threat to a racist regime on another continent. It wasn't a popular or palatable fight, not here, not in the beginning. And yet. Many of the politicians who, over the next few days, will laud his legacy, did not support the ANC's struggle, and in fact opposed it, as the ANC were deemed uncomfortably communist. (Mandela, of course, was arrested in 1952 under the Suppression of Communism Act and found guilty of "statutory communism," though the sentence was suspended. What a thing to get charged with!)

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Now, we'll see a distortion of Mandela's struggle as world leaders clamour over each other to proclaim him a saint. Which—while he was very close to one in my eyes—is an insult to history and his memory. Did those proclaiming his greatness and that of the anti-apartheid struggle now support it then? Do they support today's liberation movements, today's struggles for justice and against white supremacy, poverty, and oppression? We will see him held up as somehow beyond politics (he was not), as a pacifist (nope); we will see his legacy simplified into convenient soundbites. Just like the American Right today claims, inexplicably, Martin Luther King Jr. as one of their own, ignoring 99% of what he ever said, the Hang Mandela lot will no doubt demand his legacy, and theirs, sanitized.

If you want to honour Nelson Mandela, and you should, don't let them. Don't let them turn him into someone bland and unobjectionable. Don't forget that the ANC were derided as violent terrorists, that they were radicals in favour of redistribution of wealth and land (at least before the struggle was won and they were quickly co-opted into the global austerity agenda) it was grassroots activists and not governments or elites who started the boycott movement outside of South Africa, don't forget that the good fight, on occasion, can be won.

Mandela can rest in peace, now. The rest of us shouldn't.

ETA: Three Fingered Fox's brilliant post on Mandela and peaceful resistance.
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2013-10-27 02:13 pm
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Nooooo

Lou Reed is dead (Probably.) I think it's probably true, though, between Rolling Stone and Wikipedia.

All the sad. Not only was he a brilliant musician, but he was a huge influence on most of the other music that I love. Not to mention being one of those artists that gets me through horrible times. R.I.P.

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2013-09-05 06:28 pm

On the death of a local hero

Sad news from [livejournal.com profile] ed_rex: His uncle, Jules Paivio, has passed away at the age of 96. Jules lived near where I spent the first 18 years of my life, but I only met him in 2005, when my friend informed me that the last surviving member of the Mackenzie-Papineau Battalion, Canadian volunteers who fought in the Spanish Civil War, was living in Aurora, of all places, and up to being interviewed.

I can't do justice to all of the stories he told us that day, but here's the article that my friend wrote. Epic, grand narrative stuff. The nice old man who lives down the street fought in the noble and ultimately doomed Good Fight. Jules was only 19 when, against the policy of the Canadian government, he joined 40,000 other brave Communists, anarchists, and socialists from all over the world to fight against Franco's fascists. He spent a year in a prison camp and, upon returning home, was considered a "premature fascist" and barred from fighting overseas in WWII. Those urban legends about how Vietnam vets were spat upon by hippies coming back from the war? Well, in the case of veterans of the Spanish Civil War, it was the government spitting on them. It wasn't until 2001 that the Canadian government would recognize the courage of these volunteers, who fought against fascism when the international community had turned its back on the people of Spain.

In 2011, Jules was granted honourary Spanish citizenship.

When you hang around with enough leftists and would-be revolutionaries, an inevitable topic of conversation is about whether you'd have gone to fight in Spain if you'd lived back then. If something like that happened now, would we abandon everything we had—our jobs, our families and friends, our lives—to fight the good fight? We all like to think that we would, and most of us are honest enough to admit that we just aren't that strong.

Jules was. They don't make people like him anymore.

My sincere condolences to [livejournal.com profile] ed_rex and his family.