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Answer for question 4584.
Dec. 31st, 2015 06:51 pm[Error: unknown template qotd]You know, not bad.
It was the year I finally achieved a holding pattern after over a decade of angst, illness, and disruption. Many shitty things happened, but they didn't happen to me, and for that I am grateful. I like to think I was a decent support for the people who did have shitty things happen to them, and made an effort to reduce the amount of shittiness in the world.
I didn't accomplish much beyond mostly keeping my head above water, but when you've been drowning for a long time, that's kind of an accomplishment in itself.
Next year, well, I need to reapply for my job, and whether I get it or not, there will almost certainly be big disruptive changes and more stress. So I can't say I'm super stoked for what's to come.
I don't do resolutions. I've been trying, over the past few months, to get back to the kinds of things that I consider objectively worthwhile—art, writing, politics. The more I have accomplishments to point to, the less anxious I am in general about wasting what's left of my good years.
Not gonna lie, New Year's is a tough time for me, as it is for a lot of people. I'm still in a lot of ways recovering from having my life derailed a few years ago, and this is naturally a time to reflect on various failures, be they my fault or not.
Hence drinking tonight and in 2016, muddling through best I can.
It was the year I finally achieved a holding pattern after over a decade of angst, illness, and disruption. Many shitty things happened, but they didn't happen to me, and for that I am grateful. I like to think I was a decent support for the people who did have shitty things happen to them, and made an effort to reduce the amount of shittiness in the world.
I didn't accomplish much beyond mostly keeping my head above water, but when you've been drowning for a long time, that's kind of an accomplishment in itself.
Next year, well, I need to reapply for my job, and whether I get it or not, there will almost certainly be big disruptive changes and more stress. So I can't say I'm super stoked for what's to come.
I don't do resolutions. I've been trying, over the past few months, to get back to the kinds of things that I consider objectively worthwhile—art, writing, politics. The more I have accomplishments to point to, the less anxious I am in general about wasting what's left of my good years.
Not gonna lie, New Year's is a tough time for me, as it is for a lot of people. I'm still in a lot of ways recovering from having my life derailed a few years ago, and this is naturally a time to reflect on various failures, be they my fault or not.
Hence drinking tonight and in 2016, muddling through best I can.
