Answer for question 4584.

[sabotabby]

[Error: unknown template qotd]You know, not bad.

It was the year I finally achieved a holding pattern after over a decade of angst, illness, and disruption. Many shitty things happened, but they didn't happen to me, and for that I am grateful. I like to think I was a decent support for the people who did have shitty things happen to them, and made an effort to reduce the amount of shittiness in the world.

I didn't accomplish much beyond mostly keeping my head above water, but when you've been drowning for a long time, that's kind of an accomplishment in itself.

Next year, well, I need to reapply for my job, and whether I get it or not, there will almost certainly be big disruptive changes and more stress. So I can't say I'm super stoked for what's to come.

I don't do resolutions. I've been trying, over the past few months, to get back to the kinds of things that I consider objectively worthwhile—art, writing, politics. The more I have accomplishments to point to, the less anxious I am in general about wasting what's left of my good years.

Not gonna lie, New Year's is a tough time for me, as it is for a lot of people. I'm still in a lot of ways recovering from having my life derailed a few years ago, and this is naturally a time to reflect on various failures, be they my fault or not.

Hence drinking tonight and in 2016, muddling through best I can.

Comments

[karinmollberg.livejournal.com]

If it were someone else one might be tempted to say "no false modesty, please" but with you it's the opposite. You are a real support and more than that, I think, I know, you're a real friend to your friends and also we will have to nominate you for that Best Teacher Prize so you can go round the world and stop by here to have a cuppa, as the Bordelaise say about sharing a bottle of wine. Also, slip gently into the New Year (Guten Rutsch in German) and let's make it a happier one than the last one. Cheers, Lady from a truefhan;=)

[sabotabby]

<3 <3 <3 Thank you, m'dear, that means a lot to me. And one day I would entirely love to grab that cuppa. Happy New Year to you too!

[howlin-wolf-66.livejournal.com]

Hope you have a good one. :-) *hugs*

[sabotabby]

You too!

[ironed_orchid]

Hope you had a good night, and that 2016 is full of good things.

[sabotabby]

I did indeed; I hope you did as well.